The decision

In the past 15 years I have journaled regularly, written part of a novel, half of a set of short stories for my son and some thoughts for blogs, as yet unposted, that have come out of my own ‘aha’ moments, conversations with God and reflections from life’s journey.

The decision to write for others viewing has taken a good few years to act on as I’ve focused on the survival training that life often feels like and raising my family. 

Yes, I’ve feared failure, lacked inspiration, had no mind space, and just plain procrastinated.  I’ve been exhausted, in a comfort zone and dug my head in the sand.  Then there was juggling family and work responsibilities as well as being happy and contented (when I felt like I don’t need to move forward with this writing thing, I’m quite happy as I am, thank you) and I’ve just plain let life happen.

But with all that, if you are trying to stay in tune with your own heart and/or your walk with God, never the twain shall eventually meet.

I’ve faced the fact was that I had to own the reasons for my “can’t” and “won’t” before I “could” and “would” and could fill several books with those reasons but they would all bring me to the same 2 points:

We need to be ready to 1. Accept and make peace with the past, the sense of wasted time and realise that it was ok, time was spent on other important things and 2. Put the past behind us.  After all life is what it is, there is no going back and changing it, there is just owning it and deciding to move forward with now. 

So, I’ve decided to do just that.  There will always be circumstances and reasons, real reasons why we can’t or don’t feel we can.  As long as we have breath there will be obstacles in our path but that being said there is a right time, an appointed time in our lives for everything and only we can decide when our ‘now’ is, make that decision, take that job, write that book, live that dream but once that decision is made, we’ve opened the door to miracles.

Only God knows exactly where my writing, past, present and future will take me but I’m excited to share my process with you.   This blog is a small venture into the public domain and lends its name to its nature – an exploration of thoughts, life observations and little things I have learned on my journey.

With 4 creative children, I owe it as much to them as to myself to work with my own gifts.  How can I continually encourage them to run with their dreams if I, at some stage, am not going to do the same?

Thanks for joining me.